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:'( I've been poorly sick

I want to be at home and not at such an important time of my course :( :(

Who will magic me better?

I am tired and my head hurts and atm I'm feeling like I want to cry for no reason.

I really want to do well in this course and use the opportunity wisely - and I'm trying to do this where I can. But at the same time I want to enjoy it - how do all the others in my flat find time to go out 4 nights on the run?! Why do I appear to need more sleep?! Am I loosing out on opportunities to make more friends and do more ... Or am I making most of my opportunity to do well on this PGCE?!

I don't know

I feels wierd and not good

My head is hurting and I feel dizzyish which is always a problem. I can't concentrate on what I am doing and neither do I have the time to as I keep getting called down to judge halberts room either with more things for me to do on som dodgy tribunal awards that have been issued, or for more things to do on consumer credit act claims. Neither are really my area but I seem to have got involved and this is a pain as it is creating more work for me and nothing is really going in today anyway - even simple things. I've only just come on my lunch and I've gone past hungry now and just feel a bit crap really. Sleep is sounding so appealing!!!

I am not looking forward to work today - in fact I am dreading it. I will start my day by filing - I am overflowing with enthusiasm for this obviously. I will then helpwith post, go on the counter for the morning, do two days new issue - yesterdays looked very heavy. And then who knows what other shit jobs she will think up for me. I really hate it at the office at the moment.

Can't remember what I did or didn't update last night - but nan is now in a home after she had a second fall. Am worried so head isn't really in work

I am so tired as still didn't sleep well

Sorry to moan again but its just not going too well atm and lots of things playing on my mind.

Am at work now but am def not good - I feel sick, tummy hurts. I keep forgetting what I am doing and my brain feels hazy :(

I have been awake since before four and I went to sleep late last night and so I am tired now and this isn't good.
I was feeling low and down about a number of things.
I was worrying about work - also about being tired for said work. I am not starting the week at work up to date and I am struggling. I can't remember the last time I got any help at work - there are two people with no set jobs who help where needed on section - tina never gives me help but critisises me all the time for not being up to date and for having missing files and she makes it worse by patronising me and treating me like I'd not been doing the work for a year - but more like a week!!
Also my Nan isn't very well - in and out of hosp this weekend - her diabeties isn't good and she had the runs so a hospice wouldn't let her stay on saturday. I'm not sure what exactly the matter is but I think it a collection of things brought on after a fall she had cos she didn't have hearing aid in - she couldn't find it. I am worried about this as well
It seems as though it is always one thing after another and no let up :(

1 - how much water should you drink every day?

2 - why has bossed messed with my work again?! It has taken me over half an hour to get it back to how It was which is the order it needs to be done in - silly lady!!!

3 - is it hometime?

Yawn - I am so tired :( couldn't settle last night cos I'd been upset and was therefore all bunged up and had things going on in my head. It then rained very heavily which also kept me awake - :( I am exhausted as a result and today hasn't really started yet. I've missed my train and so sitting on the platform waiting for the next one - hope it is here soon.
And I know I wasn't with matt long but it was first person in over 3 years and I had just got head round someone wanting to be with me and accepted that whoich I think made it worse. He was first person who accepted me for me. - didn't have to be anyone I wasn't or hide bits of myself. But I don't suppose that matters anymore as I'm back to how it was - enjoyed it while it lasted but thought it would last longer.
Not much happening in other news bar work which is awful - and am so tired today I honestly don't know how I will make it through to the end of the day :( I am on counter till 12 then a meeting with court manager at half twelve as a back to work interview cos I was ill before my annual leave. Then pm at my desk an answering the phones. I am not looking forward to day as I am so far behind with being off it is very overwhealming and boss is treating me like I'm 2 - maybe I should act it - have a paddy- rip up the work?

Still no sign of my train and it should be here now - what a pain :( not announced cancelled so hopefcully be here soon - normally gets here ten minutes ago. And typically happens on the day I need to go to Tesco on my way as I have. No squash at work and have not made butties so will look at those too.

I'm so waffling now - oops- sorry about the moan and feeling crappneSs :(

I HAVE GOT ON THE PGCE COURSE FOR SEPTEMBER ENTRY!!!

I'VE DONE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I feel completely fed up of this week. All I have done is go to work, come home, tea, bath and bed. Work has been super busy as i've been trying to catch up with having monday off but also been doing the issue of all new claimas as well- in short 2 full time jobs.  I have woken with a headache this morning which was not in my plan - and it is right behind my left eye and very sore already. It is a day where I would like to wear comfortable jogging bottoms and a nice cosy fleecy jumper.... but I'm not allowed to wear that at work :( I dont suppose that it helps that everyone else in my house isn't at work at the moment and so it is just me. Utterly, completely and totally fed up :( 
*grumps*

1. The Boy in Striped Pyjamas - John  Boyde   - reread

2. Trafalgar - Bryan Perrett

3. Snap - Alison McGhee

4. Harry Potter adn the Half Blood Prince - J K Rowling - reread

5. Bombs on Aunt Dainty - Judith Kerr


Didn't really get through many but I suppose that Harry P was a bit longer than normal....

Will try and do better in August

What is on your to-read pile in August please?